1 month to Race day

Struck me hard when i read fr the watch this morning.
6th Nov, exact 1 month + 1 day to Race day.
Time flew by and it is about time to revisit the ghost of last year.

Worrying thing is that i am not as fit as i wanted to be.
Not too sure if my theory of delaying the peak period is working.
But it is really abit of concern for me.

I am typing my thoughts as they come along...
This period of time had been a interesting journey as i revolve my life ard marathoning.
The "miracle" of each session as I pushed myself through what i termed as "impossible conditions".
eg. 25hr flight with no slp and hitting the road immediately.....

I had gone through period of feeling great and to the current status now.
Now, time frame is too short for any more drastic changes, I m just hoping for the best to come when i slam those lung bursting intervals....

Now, some other concerns:
1. Race day plans: go out fast at the start with expected competitors? Hang in there till the end?
The prob with this is that all the eggs are placed in 1 basket. no turning back.

2. Run my own pace?
Problem is that after 30km point. Aerobic fitness doesn't count for nuts. It is about your mental and muscular endurance. By then, my advantage is gone.
But then again, reserving a last bit will enable to catch up?

3. Trainings
I am never the sort that enjoys "practising" the race.
Doing race pace intervals, etc, etc.... I do not want to make it like taking an exam.
I enjoy the "new" feeling / experience....
But then again, perhaps i shld focus on that to improve further?

4. Weight
Darn, i am still at least 10kg heavier.
Time is running out.